Hello Again

I originally started this blog a few years ago when life as I know it was much simpler. I was married, albeit unhappily, and staying at home raising my 2 young children. Fast forward to present day. We have gone through a divorce, fairly amicable I suppose, considering other divorce stories I've heard. I am still a stay at home mom...this time not by choice. I would love to be able to stay home and raise my children until they are grown, but the reality is that I am now on my own. I stayed home for 10 years to be mommy so my job history is screwed. Sending out resumes daily and not getting responses...starting to stress me out a bit. I do get child support and alimony, that I am so grateful to have as I know many divorced moms will never see a dime. It just isn't enough to keep my children in the "lifestyle they are accustomed to". So I see changes ahead for us. We currently live in a rental house and each child has their own room. That may change soon as its really the rent that is cutting into my budget. I have a boy and a girl so I'm sure they will not be happy with sharing a room. I'll let you know how that goes.

Personally, I have gone through many changes since the divorce. Physically I have lost 50 lbs. that I gained and never lost with my pregnancies. I workout daily, which I never did before and I feel great. My self esteem is pretty good regarding the way I look however not being able to find a job has started to depress me a bit. I guess this blog is just going to be my way of venting. I have a lot of interests including cooking and photography so I suppose you will see some posts of that nature as well. I'm dating a great guy (we'll talk more about that later) and generally feel happy. My kids seem to be doing as well as can be expected. Their dad and I try to get along and make things as easy as possible for them, although we are far from perfect. This is such a strange place in my life that I never really expected I would be in. Life is never easy I suppose.